Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Pain in the Neck.

Dear Blog,

I should post something, because I said I would, and I said I had goals. (Despite the fact that I get a bit impatient with goals as a concept, they're good things overall).

The trouble is finding something worth writing about, especially after a long day of work. It's also a little bit tougher when your neck hurts.

This neck pain is, it seems, a result of a couple things. I am a tense and intense person, apparently, and grind my teeth at night. And yes, I do have one of those awful mouth-guard things, but my unconscious asleep self knows that this thing is terrible and it's inevitably found on the bedside table, on the floor, across the room, something, by the time morning rolls around.

I also keep my shoulders kind of hunched and tense as well, like I'm about to tackle someone or something.

Maybe I am.

The other trouble is that I use my computer a lot, and not the right way, and that makes pain in my neck, too. My computer is a pain in my neck.

So I opened up one of my writing works-in-progress in Microsoft Word in the hopes that I'd actually get some fun kinds of writing done, but my eyes feel like they're about to fall out of my head, and my neck hurts, and I'm not feeling particularly inspired. Actually, I feel kind of like I want to play video games.

Which leads me to ask this question: how do people create when they've worn themselves out?

People do it. There are artists and writers who somehow manage to squeeze out masterpieces after 40 hour workweeks, don't they? But how? Is coffee the answer? Is the right music the right answer? I can't write half a sentence, and when I look over my work, it sure ain't a masterpiece, by any means.

I think what's more disconcerting is the fact that I have this need to get writing done, and it's not getting met. Perhaps that is the bigger issue. I don't care if it's complete garbage, but I need to get some kind of writing accomplished in some form, or else something unfortunate might happen. I think that is the source of spontaneous combustion, by the way. Unmet writing needs.

So this is the crappiest post of all time, but I've got videogames other stuff to write.